Lost pieces

The first day after my granny broke

I held her hand

she whispered that

a man behind the chair

had scared her

.

the week my granny broke again

she held my hand

she told me stories

from the war

and talked about my Grandpa

.

the month my granny stuck

on shuffle and repeat

she asked about my dad

she whispered that

a man behind the chair

had scared her

.

stuck on shuffle and repeat

my granny sat

whisky-tonic in one hand

staring at the corner

.

she asked about my dad

.

I held her

.

time stopped when my granny died

I cried the day we buried her

now she and Grandpa lie side by side

they do the crossword together

Dia de Muertos

In a geriatric garden room

dozing with the nearly dead

we hull one hundred pumpkin pips.

The knife slides through the orange flesh

we carve the nose, a spooky face,

our spectators sit transfixed.

My entertaining ten year old

holds the prize aloft and captivates

the crowd, his cheeks burning.

As he charms them, I can only think

maybe he will relive this scene

one day with his own offspring.

And I will watch them, half alive

half of me already on the other side

as outside, autumn leaves fall.

Cake eaten and tea drunk

it’s time to hug my gran goodbye,

as we do, her eyes dull.

(Oct 2013 Dedicated to my wonderful granny x)

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